Mood: sad.

i don't know what the heck happened to me. i just ... can't make myself to face anybody.

I broke down today. emotionally not ready to face anything. it just fall unwillingly, and i've to stop myself from doing that. i'm strong girl. bull shit. i'm really tired, doing the same thing again and again but all i get was disappointment, empty promises and nothing else.

didn't really studied yesterday. that's why i flunk my summary test and math test, & i seriously don't have the mood to do anything. when i can't do my a math, i get real frustrated and i can't control myself. Destroying things around, controlled crying. & i felt so helpless. but i couldn't find anybody to tell what to do. Sister accompanied me to talk for awhile, and at a later part conference with Jiefu. I looked so stupid, crying when it doesn't help anything. What for i cry when it is a small thing that is so insignificant. :( does he really care? it makes me wonder.

Later will be meeting sister & weekiat for dinner bah. he should be having his fun at chalet. yea, nothing can be done. i'm going for a nap. don't think too much girl. it's so stupid. ughhhhhhhhhhh.

bye.

Mood: sad.

i don't know what the heck happened to me. i just ... can't make myself to face anybody.

I broke down today. emotionally not ready to face anything. it just fall unwillingly, and i've to stop myself from doing that. i'm strong girl. bull shit. i'm really tired, doing the same thing again and again but all i get was disappointment, empty promises and nothing else.

didn't really studied yesterday. that's why i flunk my summary test and math test, & i seriously don't have the mood to do anything. when i can't do my a math, i get real frustrated and i can't control myself. Destroying things around, controlled crying. & i felt so helpless. but i couldn't find anybody to tell what to do. Sister accompanied me to talk for awhile, and at a later part conference with Jiefu. I looked so stupid, crying when it doesn't help anything. What for i cry when it is a small thing that is so insignificant. :( does he really care? it makes me wonder.

Later will be meeting sister & weekiat for dinner bah. he should be having his fun at chalet. yea, nothing can be done. i'm going for a nap. don't think too much girl. it's so stupid. ughhhhhhhhhhh.

bye.